Senior recognition today

19 May

Once again my heart breaks and soars at the same time.  Graduation—the end of one leg of a journey—the beginning of another.  A rite of passage.  The official point of departure from childhood into adulthood.  A new adventure.  Our last to move on—so closely after the first. 

This afternoon, the two brothers took on the challenge of taking apart an old four wheeler that has been in my backyard for eons.  Hearing them talking, working, laughing together made me realize that the wind has changed.  They were discussing college this fall.  Orientation still to attend.  The older giving the younger advice—–the younger actually listening and asking questions.  It’s too much—-it’s too fast—I want to hit the pause button, but there is none. 

13 years ago, this same month, my little boy stood on the same stage platform as today.  He was going to be a fireman.  His little ditty was:

I want to be a fireman.

I’ll be brave and strong.

I’ll listen for the fire alarm

all day and all night long.

Today, on that same platform, he stated his name, identified his parents, the school he was graduating from, the college he will attend and this time, instead of a fireman, he is going to be a premed student.

Last time was pretend and we all laughed and thought, how cute.  This time it is for real and I cried. 

The minister commissioned them not to be one of the 80% who will leave their church life behind.  I pray this will not happen to either of my boys.  Suddenly I feel as though I have been so inadequate—-falling so short—praying that God’s sufficientcy will fill in where I have been insufficient.

This Saturday night, I will look on with much love and affection as my youngest marches to his seat,  traditional graduation music playing and at some undetermined, silent, secret moment, I will in my heart release him to grow to be the man God intends for him to be.



6 Responses to “Senior recognition today”

  1. Kimberly May 19, 2008 at 12:31 am #

    You can do this girl!!!!

  2. Stacey May 19, 2008 at 1:53 am #

    I always have tears at senior recognition and I am years away. I can’t imagine being in your shoes… but you have raised two terrific boys and remember… His word does not return void!

    Love ya!

  3. "Maggie" May 19, 2008 at 2:35 am #

    Beautifully written for the heart.

    In that silent, secret moment…you’ll know his grace is enough. It has been thus far, and it will continue to be.

    You will know that who who has been faithful through all the late nights, challenges, tests, worries, fears, storms, fights, disagreements, disciplines, as well as celebrations and joys…will still be the one called by the same name…that name that gives me chills…that name who rides a white horse…and his name is called “Faithful and True”.

    He has been faithful. He is faithful. He will be faithful.

    You are the one who has taught me to pray that He will fill the gaps I leave. He does! And I know He will for you, too.

    Thank you for being such a loving and faithful mother…such a caring friend to those who have young.

    God has indeed given you the heart of a mother…and you will continue to hold them high in your prayers, blessing, and confidence in them. I know so…for you continue to do that in my life also…whether we are in close contact or sporadic. Your faithful life is always there…available, timely. You will be so to your boys whether they are under your roof 100% of the time or not. Oh! Rejoice! Rejoice in that!

    Thanks for sharing your tender parts of your journey. I believe it prepares all of us for those steps to come and reminds others of a well-worn journey.


  4. Kim May 19, 2008 at 11:55 am #

    I second what Maggie said and I am sending you a big hug right now!!!

  5. Misty May 19, 2008 at 1:57 pm #

    Oh, my gosh! I still remember Meg’s little preschool poems. I’m tearing up just thinking of facing letting her go.

    But, you have nothing to worry about. You and hub are such great parents. You’ve raised up two very bright, responsible, moral young men. You’ve did the job God gave you to do and you’ve done it well. You’ll always be a mom, no matter how old your babies are.


  6. Theresa May 20, 2008 at 9:57 pm #

    Lots of tears were shed Sunday, just watching the slide show choked me up. They grow up just way too fast!!!! Your boys have been blessed though for having you as their Mom. They have been given a strong foundation and now you can look back with pride realizing that you’ve built them into the fine young men that they are.

    Will it be hard to watch him go across that stage, you bet. But hold that head high and do so with the knowledge that you did good girl!

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